Insiders I don’t know about you but I physically can’t stand liars. If you lie to me, it’s probably the worst thing you’ll ever do to me.
I bet I know what your all thinking ‘scorned girl’ – Some guy has broken her heart by cheating. Well Insiders, if you were thinking this, you couldn’t be further from the truth. I’ve recently come to the conclusion and realisation why I hate liars so much.
I think (and I’m not a trained physiologist) but I think it stems from my dad. Him coming and going into my life without a moment notice. I guess I link it with my feelings of him not loving me, being with him own family and slowly freezing me out of his life.
I have also had friends in my life that have unfortunately used things that I’ve said to them in confidence against me. It’s the ultimate betrayal. I mean recently, one of my close friends deleted me off social media. I know, I know Insiders, how silly/childish do I sound? However I classed this person as someone close to me and they have been there and put a smile on my face when I didn’t think I could. This person never even told me that I was being deleted. So what I do, being the impulsive person I am, is go head on with my ‘friend’ and ask what the hell is going on. You know I got the most stupidest reply ever. ‘I deleted someone with the same name as you. I must’ve deleted you as well. I don’t want to be on social media anymore’ – I mean come on this is one of the biggest lies I’ve ever. If you dont want to talk to me anymore all they need to do is tell me. I guess the friendship I thought I had with this person, was fake and I was being used. – UGH. Talk about being hurt. I sound like a child, but this is seriously something that bugs me. I know it shouldn’t but I over analyse everything. Im starting to think that I did something wrong to this ‘friend’.
Plus living with anxiety means that you think everyone around you hates you, everyone around you is talking about you. You constantly feel as though people are lying to you.
I hate the feeling of people hating me or feel as though they are lying to me. I mean come on, why hurt someone by telling a lie that could make things 10x worse. Its like when people lie in a relationship ‘I only cheated because I didn’t know what I was doing – Biggest lie in history. People cheat because they aren’t happy and are looking for anger way out of a relationship. They lie to themselves and also the ‘love’ of their life.
Don’t ever lie to me Insiders, its one thing that I will never forgive. – I can’t explain how much I hate it.
The Insider x