The Giddy Feeling 

Right. I’m going to start by saying, I’m in a very happy long term relationship. However, I still remember that bubbly feeling – still get it actually. When you see that one person you like.

Girls, you know what feeling I’m talking about – No. Nothing sexual! That warm giddy feeling you get when you see that guy that you like.

You know those types of girls that just seem to be so perfect, there hair always perfectly curled, there makeup perfectly airbrushed all the time. They seem to always catch the looks of the guys, whether or not they mean too. Like one of my friends, she’s completely flawless without even trying! It’s like all the guys mouths hit the floor and there eyes pop out there head! Me on the other hand, I was the goofy girl. The one that wasn’t necessarily gorgeous or ugly (no one is ugly by the way!) – I was just average. The one that always bumped into tables, tripped over and stuttered my words. Especially if I was around a guy I liked.

I was a super confident person. I know contradicting right? I only turned into a goofy moron when I was around someone I liked. I couldn’t get my words out at all. I’ll be tripping over my words, I’ll loose my train of thought – I just stand there like a wet lemon.  When you like someone, your eyes will automatically search the room to try and see it they are around – This happens subconsciously. Then as soon as you click eyes on them, your heart literally skips a beat. Then you will make up any excuse to go over and talk to them. Ok girls, you all know that nervously sick feeling you get when you walk over to a really hot guy? It’s horrid. Your mouth starts to go dry, your palms start to sweat – You probably think that people can see your sweat. (They can’t don’t worry). These feelings are absolutely normal! Don’t panic. Then you have to think of something to say to this guy. I always pray ‘god help me not look like an idiot’. However, I get all giggly and start looking like an idiot.

Thank the lord I have a boyfriend as I can definitely not flirt to save my life.

My way of flirting is insulting the guy. (Stupid). Anyway, once you’ve made your approach, as elegant as you can, you try to make conversation. Tones of topics running through your brain, any normal person will ask them how there weekend was, how works going anything! Me, oh no. I’m not that smooth. I come out with ‘long time no see!’ – I saw him like an hour ago. He had only gone for lunch. I mean I just wanted the floor to eat me up right then and there. However, it made him laugh (god my knees go weak when he laughs).


Satisfied with yourself you walk away all confident. This is when all the worrying starts. You’ll start to replay the conversation in your head, wondering how stupid you sounded. Wondering if you came across like a school girl, wondering if you looked desperate. I know we have all thought these things. You know what, as long as you managed to smile, nod and walk away without falling over, it was a success! – When you sit back down, you’ll constantly be looking over, wandering if he/she is looking at you. Wondering if they think about you. It’s enough to drive you crazy!

I think we should all just enjoy the bubbly feeling of crushing on someone… If your as lucky as me, you’ll get this feeling every time you look at your boyfriend/partner/husband/wife.

Much Love,

The Insider x


Thank You For The Music 

Music. I believe that music is the way to people’s hearts.

Nothing feels better than, looking out a car window with your headphones on bobbing along. – Now don’t lie. I know that we all bob around to music thinking that we are in a music video. I’ll be lip singing along to the songs thinking that my voice is theirs (which is definitely not the case, as I’m tone death). However, this doesn’t stop me!

I think music can really express the way in which you feel. I know for me, if I’m upset or thinking about deep things ‘sad/meaningful’ music can really help. It can help you get through certain things that you might be finding hard to rationalise by talking or concentrating.  Music helps you to drift off into a world in which you can just relax and listen – this is sometimes all you need. The song helps you unlock the answer. I truly believe that songs speak from the heart. – For me music is able to say the things that I find difficult to say. Mainly about negative feelings.

On the flip side! Music can definitely create an amazing atmosphere. It can absolutely change your mood from bad to good. You can be in the worst mood in the whole world, then suddenly an upbeat song booms over the radio and its like you get taken into a parallel universe. This universe is covered in pink fluffy clouds, rainbows, unicorns and puppies. Everything is good. The rhythm moves through your body, giving off endorphins. We all know those kind of songs… You know, the ones where your foot starts twitching, your head starts to bob – The ones you can’t help but smile at.

Who can live without music. – I can’t name anyone. If you can name someone, then that’s a person not to be trusted. Their heart hasn’t been touched by music (they must be soulless). – No offence to the soulless people that might read this!

As ABBA says ‘nothing could capture a heart like a melody can’ – ‘Thank you for the music’

Much Love,

The Insider x