If you could have a super power, what one would you have?!

You know Insiders, I have always had this question in my head. I have never been able to distinctively say which superpower I would like. There is just way too many to pick from!

  • Invisibility
  • Flying
  • Super Human Strength
  • Breathing Under Water
  • Mind Control

I just wouldn’t know what to pick. These are clearly the common ones however then you need to take into consideration the elements as well. – Earth, Water, Fire and Air.

I remember at one stage of my life, I would’ve loved to have the power of invisibility. Mainly because I wished that no one could see me. I just wanted to blend in and wanted no one to see my face, my body or even the person that I was.

Another stage of my life, I would’ve loved to have mind control, so I could control the way people thought about me. To be able to understand or know exactly what others thought about me. Although, the thought of this now, terrifies me. I mean, come on who would wan to know the truth about what others thought about you. Could end up being super harsh and hurtful.

I would’ve loved to fly at one point as well. Especially, when I had just passed my driving test and needing to drive to work every day. I HATE traffic. I love driving fast and obviously in 9-5 traffic this is completely out of the question. I have an amazing car that isn’t rather nippy and I’m not able to use it. – FRUSTRATING. Crawling to work at 20mph isn’t the best thing. Imagine being able to fly. Fly as high as the sky. Up there with the planes and the birds feeling completely free. – This all sounds amazing, until I came to the realisation that I’m afraid of heights.

I’m sure that we all remember those walks to school as a child. Insiders, you know the ones. The ones in the winter, when it’s so cold your nose is red raw, your finger tips numb with frost bite. When it was so cold you could see your breath when you blew out. I’m sure I’m not the only one, that thought I had the super power of Ice. I used to think I was some kind of Ice Princess and that my powers were just growing. – How silly! I would exhale and think that i was going to freeze someone. i mean come on i get  a 10/10 for imagination.

I have finally settled with my superpower. – I MAKE PROSECCO DISAPPEAR.

No word of a lie. I’m magic, I make it completely disappear. How amazing is that? – I end up being able to gear the prosecco talking to me once its gone.

Anyway, Insiders, I can hear it calling me now!

Have an AMAZING saturday evening!

Much Love,

The Insider x


It’s My Birthday & I’ll Party If I Want Too!

My whole world is coming to an end Insiders. I’ve turned 22. I’m edging closer and closer to having to be an ACTUAL adult. What an awful thought. – My grey hairs will be coming before know it. 

My day started by being woken up by a text at 4:55am. If any of you Insiders read my bog 50/50 and bet that my dad would text me… Well you win. I was woken up at 4:55 in the morning, by a text from my dad saying and I quote ‘Happy Birthday x’. Yupp. That’s all the message said. I closed my phone and went back to sleep. – I woke up again at like 9 (a more sensible hour!) and replied to his text and I quote ‘Thank you x’ and no other response was given. GREAT. (sarcasm).

My gorgeous boyfriend got up and took me for my favourite breakfast. McDonald’s breakfast. Yes, yes I know, it’s not glamorous or anything like that however, I LOVE McDonald’s breakfast. – Embarrassing but each to their own and all that! I was rather happy after having breakfast. 

My boyfriend then decided to book tickets to go to the cinema. We went to watch ‘The Greatest Showman’ – OMG. I LOVED IT! It was so amazing! Great story line of the circus and how they came to be around and the development of them around the world. Romance with Zac Efron as the main sex god! – I was trying not to drool when he came out singing in a suit. Yummy! Hugh Jackman was also BRILLIANT! Defiantly a major fitty for his age! I would absolutely suggest this film if you like a light-hearted musical with a twist. – I have bought the album on iTunes! 

THEN! We went back to his and we started to get ready for dinner. I was super excited for dinner, as my mum and step dad were meeting us for a steak night. I was actually feeling really good about myself today (shocker!). I had put on my gorgeous light blue ripped jeans, black top, back heels and curled my hair. If I do say so myself, I looked damn good! 

The Steak that we had was insane. – If your veggie im sorry! The steak was just beautiful! I mean it was cooked perfectly. Medium rare just how I like. the meat just melted in your mouth. The mushroom source was breathtaking aswell. 

I’ve been very very spoilt! – Thank you to everyone for the birthday messages and for spoiling me rotten! 

Much Love, 

The Insider x 


INSIDERS! – Its my birthday tomorrow! I SOO can’t wait. I will make an admission – I am one of those birthday princess divas.

I know that sounds funny but honestly, I’m very much like ‘It’s my birthday is all about me’ – Well I act like that in my head but not outside for everyone to see.

However, there is a small part of me that wonders. I wonder if I’ll be contacted by my dad. Its one of those days that I start to feel a little vulnerable. I start to think about my dad. (I really don’t know why – It’s rather annoying).

He used to post a card through my door at like 5am before he went to work. Now I’m lucky to get a text from him. – As you can see Insiders, I have a lot of built up anger against my dad.

I wonder if ill get a text or card… 50/50.

I’ll let you know!

Much Love,

The Insider x

But first COFFEE!

How do people do this?!

This is my first early shift in months. And I have to say …. ITS KILLING ME! – Why on earth would people like having early shifts?!

I would much rather have my 12pm-8pm shifts! They are much more appealing! I mean come on Insiders, I get a lay in till 9:00-9:30! I miss all the morning and evening traffic! What could be more better?

I know, I know! You get to leave earlier and you have the evening to do things. What about the tiredness? What about the early nights? No lay ins?! This is killing me!

I can honestly say that I’m being run on coffee today. I must’ve drank my whole body weight in coffee. I wouldn’t have survived without it. – THANK GOD WE GET FREE COFFEE!

The free coffee isn’t like Starbucks or Costa but it does the job. I mean we have a Starbucks and Costa in the building and it’s slightly reduced prices, however the coffee machine is just so much closure! – Plus free.

Not to mention we had lunch at 1pm. I’m used to only being at work for an hour by 1pm, not even thinking about eating. I just wasnt hungry at all. my body was telling me that I didn’t need food until around 3:30pm-4:00pm.

I honestly couldn’t wait to get home and put my slippers on and sleep. – I sound like a right oldie.

Never again..

Much Love,

The Insider x

Handbags Vs Clothes

I think I’ve mentioned before that I find Shopping a little tedious and sometimes stressful.

I’ve been out shopping with my bestie all day. She’s this gorgeous size 10 with big boobs and flat stomach (jealous!). Whilst I’m a chubby size 18 and lumps and bumps in the wrong places!

She can wear a dish cloth and she’d look fabulous. Whilst me, I look stupid in just a black old Tshirt. I have to look for the bigger sizes which most shops don’t even go up too. I have to look for the flowy, baggy clothes so that none of my chubbiness.

I hate it. I mean, I love going shopping with her. I love seeing her try on all these amazing clothes and tops. I love being able to talk her into treating herself. However, I’ll pick out a few things that I love but they don’t look good at all. I mean, I’ll pick my size, hold my breath in the fitting room. Then – my eyes traveling down my reflection in the mirror. Ok, it looks good on the neck line, flows nicely on my stomach area but it’s all too good to be true. It’s too tight on my arms. Sadly I have rather fatty upper arms.

If it’s not my arms, it’s my waist, if it’s not my waist it’s my boobs. Honestly my body is awful to try and dress. I really hits my confidence. It’s as though, my body lets me down and I end up buying nothing. I can’t explain how low I get.

However handbags. Now handbags never make me feel sad. They never make me feel as though I’m fat or ugly. You can never have too many handbags! There is so many to choose from! Different sizes, different colours, different fabrics. Each and everyone will suit you. You don’t have to worry about them not looking good on you.

So today, I didn’t manage to find any clothes that looked good on me, so I brought a brand new handbag! It’s GORGEOUS! A lovely mustard colour. Ooh I’m trying not to drawl whilst thinking about it.

If I sold my handbag collection I would probably have a deposit for a house! – No word of a lie!

Much Love,

The Insider x

4 Years!

Well Insiders,

I don’t know how my boyfriend has done it. However we have reached the bench mark of 4 years! How AMAZING is that?! Its crazy! It really doesn’t feel as though its been as long as that! – I guess thats a good thing.

Im sure I’ve mentioned previously that we’ve been best friends for like 8 years now. Half of that time we have been together! I can honestly say that I don’t know what I would do without him in my life. He’s always been there for me, especially now that I’m going through all this emotional sh**. He’s not been scared off at all, when most would. He’s an amazing human being.

Our anniversary is smack bang in the middle of January. This is a little annoying as we have just had Christmas and our employer pays early in December for late Christmas shopping. This is great but means everyone is living on rations for the rest of the month until January pay day. SO LONG. Anyway, with our anniversary being in the middle of January it means that we decide to have a lovely, cozy day/night in.

This year was by far the best anniversary for me. – No, no ring Insiders, I bet thats what all of you were thinking, but nope, not yet! You’ll all be the first to know when that happens! I’ll tell you what though! It’s super annoying when people ask how long me and my boyfriend have been together and everyone says ‘Ooh, no ring yet?!’ – I just want to scream in their faces, ‘NO and it doesn’t matter! A ring doesn’t mean he loves me any less! – Not to mention we are only just into our 20s!’. Its crazy how so many people think its important to have a ring to just symbolise their love. Im definitely not against marriage or anything like that – I’d be thrilled however, I think its rude saying that kind of thing to others when you don’t know what their situation is or if they are even ready.. 

Anyway… Mini rant over…

We had both booked the day off work and had the whole day together watching Disney films. I made him breakfast, which wasn’t a total disaster. The fire alarm went off but other than that it went off without a hitch! – We then retired to the snug and watched LOADS of Disney films, with chocolates/sweets. I know, I know, how old are we? I believe that your never to old for Disney! No matter how old you are, you’ll always be able to be cheered up by a Disney/Pixar film. – If you don’t agree, you can bibbidi bobbidi back hell off my blog (just kidding or am I….?!). He then went to make dinner – My favourite! Sausage, mash and beans. YUM!! – this wasn’t a romantic dinner, as it did get crashed by my mum and dad. THANKS GUYS! (not). 

We both agreed on no presents this year as we were both struggling for money after Christmas. All we said was cards. I’m not going to lie, cards are my favourite part of any celebration. My boyfriend is the soppiest person in the world and writes the most amazing things to me. All about how much he loves me. To me, this means more than any present as he has spent time to think and write lovely things to me. – Such a CUTIE!

Gosh I LOVE HIM. – I’d be so lost without him.

Much Love,

The Insider x